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Changes 1
2002.07.21

The oddest thing. Right now I'm sitting at my kitchen table with my legs crossed on the seat like I normally do. My right knee is actually a bit higher because the right side is propped up a little on the chair arm. Anyways, I was typing out the last diary entry when I looked down at the skin just to the left of my kneecap. It was peculiar. I am pretty aware of my body most of the time but I just don't remember my skin looking like this. It's as if the skin has a very thin onion-skin trasclucent layer on it. I can't see any more fine hair on the skin either. It just has this real glass-like quality to it. I stretched out my leg out on top of the table and took a second look. Yup, my skin has this weird kind of glassy sheen to it. Faint but noticeable to me. Or at least, I just don't remember it like this. Hm, I wonder if this is one of the HRT byproducts I've been told about.
      I did notice sometime earlier this week that on my abdomen and upper thigh below the groin that there are some odd stretch mark-like lines forming. It's like the skin is a smooth gradient with tiny-yet-perceptible horizontal white streaks in it...

Weird.

      I also have had really sore muscles from yesterday. But in general I've also been finding things are harder to hold up. I still have my old strength in terms of raw muscle power but I am starting to lose my endurance. It's like the muscles are telling me, "hey, do we really have to do this? I'm tired! Let's go shopping instead!"

Weirder.

      While we're on the subject of body changes, I'm very glad I banked my sperm earlier this year. If I had tried right now it would be downright impossible. As I was relating to some others on the GenderPeace boards, things are just not as "responsive" as they used to be. Impotence doesn't scare me an iota. My only fear here is losing skin surface area for future grafts. I'm not keen on having sections of my abdomen used as donor sites.

Amazing. (It's not weird because I knew this would happen.)