Amberspace: Information resources for transsexual (TS) and
transgendered (TG) persons. Follow the journey of Amber,
a post-transition MTF TS.
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I was told years ago that I'll most likely go through a phase where I
buy things that I'll look back upon and ask: "what the hell was I
thinking?!" Nah, that couldn't happen to me---could it?
Well, as I look at my closet I don't quite get that type
of reaction, but close. It's more of the "it's cute but no longer
appropriate" feeling. I thought I could avoid this because I chose
rather practical things even from
the start. No fancy dresses or lingerie. Nope. That was never
me. So how could I have gone wrong...?
The problem with my wardrobe that I do have is
that it is really mismatched because I've accumulated it over the past
few years in a piecemeal fashion. And my tastes have changed a little,
too. I need things that work together. I need outfits. I need
separates. I need to find things that speak to my taste and work with
what body I do have.
One of my incessant fears from years hence has been I'll get something
that I can't "grow" into. Now I'm getting to the opinion of "I don't
think things are going to change that much so I might as well get
something that works now." That does mean I'll create waste,
but it also means I might have a shot at getting a functional wardrobe
going.
You know, a lot of this is also self-discovery. I've always been in an
observer position watching other girls and women. Now that I have a
chance to actually live in that role there are so many nuances that
just come up. Like yesterday. What I've decided is that my purse
straps are indeed too long. And that my purse is a little too small.
And that I need something where the cell phone hangs on the
outside because I missed two calls. Granted, I was in a noisy
restaurant, but my ringer was on the loudest. But the fact is that it
was muffled by the bag itself. How could I have really known this
without having had personal experience?
A friend has kindly offered to provide me real-time feedback on the
clothes issue. She has much better taste than I.
We'll have to go shopping soon.
We'll have to go shopping soon.
