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ramblings

Christmas 2002
2002.12.24

What a difference four years makes. I was scared, closetted, and trapped in my own mental prison. I'm still afraid, but for different reasons entirely. I'm concerned about legal issues, employment, and future health. I've come out to most of the important people in my life and I'm floating around womenspace just about whenever and however I feel like. I'm unsure of my family but that is because I'm becoming more resolved in my direction. I just have a little more doubt to quell and then it's full speed ahead with transition, I guess.

But that's not really what I wanted to talk about.

I want to thank so many people. So, in no particular order: I've met so many great people in the trans community, both online and in person. I could not have done this without them. Some have come into my life at very opportune times and have expedited many things and been a source of emotional support. Despite what I've said about my parents being turned off about the transition, they're still my parents and we still are together as a family---for that I'm thankful, and not just because they feed me well. I thank my doctors who have kept my physical body running smoothly. I thank my insurance for not denying me subsidization of some of my meds. I thank my electrologist for giving me confidence and undamanged hair-free skin. I thank my close friends for being there through this trying time. I'm very fortunate, I know.

I don't need gifts when I have people like this around. (Well, goodies are cool, I won't deny that.

) I'm not religious at all, but Christmas has been a special time for me. It's a short window of time where it's filled with family, food, and resting. I treasure each one and I try to live in the moment. Mom and Dad are getting older, my brother has gone his ways. Together Time just doesn't happen much anymore so it's special when it does.

I wish you the best this holiday season whoever and wherever you are. It's a scary world out there and it's nice to hold onto the things that we remember are good.

Hugz,
-- Amber!