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| Transition, Say No More! |
2006.02.28 |
More than "moving on", try to see it from the non-trans perspective. |
| Thoughts About Being Trans and Homeless |
2005.07.09 |
It's not just about "finding a job". |
| The Danger of Debt |
2004.08.09 |
What I fear is going to make or break so many those in transitions. |
| Closing the Book |
2004.08.01 |
It's hard to walk away sometimes. |
| The Long-Term Game |
2004.07.22 |
Let's talk long-term. |
| The Finish Line |
2004.06.27 |
Where do you want to go? |
| Do You Hear What I Hear? |
2004.05.15 |
Have examples lead you? |
| Lead By Example |
2003.12.22 |
Sometimes you just need proof that transition works out. |
| My Morning Schedule: Part 2 |
2003.12.15 |
A follow-up. |
| MANipulation |
2003.09.18 |
It's like weilding a bag of chum. |
| All For Nothing? |
2003.07.09 |
Why all the commotion? |
| Déjà Vu |
2003.03.24 |
Soak, massage, rinse, repeat. |
| What Preference? |
2003.03.16 |
Ambiguously fascinating. |
| Path to Resolution |
2003.01.11 |
Why so long? |
| Christmas 2002 |
2002.12.24 |
Another point of reflection. |
| The Parting |
2002.12.17 |
I don't know what to say here... |
| Life Prep 1 |
2002.12.09 |
There's a few things hanging over my head and I can't sit on my hands forever now. |
| K.I.T. |
2002.12.07 |
How can one person adequately manage their lives? |
| Turkey 2002 |
2002.11.29 |
I will remember... |
| Two Hour Boy: Letter |
2002.11.10 |
A letter I'm thinking about writing. |
| Two Hour Boy |
2002.11.09 |
Major resistance. Read with Kleenex in hand. |
| Cycle of Life |
2002.10.12 |
The cycle of life sucks. Why won't Mom and Dad break the cycle? |
| Fashion 911 |
2002.10.11 |
Amber needs clothes badly. |
| Financial (Non)Sense |
2002.10.07 |
Amber's investment advice. |
| Profound Responsibility |
2002.10.06 |
Serious words. Serious change. |
| My Morning Schedule |
2002.09.19 |
Or "Why Does It Take You So Long To Get Outta Da Friggin' Shower?!" |
| Got Masculinity? (Mascu-Land) |
2002.09.01 |
Yup. *crack knuckles* Still got it. |
| Loneliness: 3rd Strike |
2002.09.01 |
In order to stay in the game you gotta work for it. |
| With a Little Help From My ... |
2002.08.26 |
It's time to say "thanks". |
| Changes 2 |
2002.08.25 |
Amber meets the formidable Fudge Mountain. |
| Face Value |
2002.08.16 |
A face-to-face encounter with non-TGs. |
| Straight as a 2x4 |
2002.08.11 |
Grr. Sometimes I wish my body would change a bit faster. |
| Transition vs. Standards of Living |
2002.07.28 |
How can we make transition accessible to people of different locales? |
| Fuzzy Future |
2002.07.25 |
More questions than normal have come up now. |
| Changes 1 |
2002.07.21 |
Funny. I didn't quite notice this before. |
| Diary 4 |
2002.07.21 |
Had a tough talk but it was well warranted. |
| Diary 3 |
2002.07.15 |
Recapping a few weeks of stuff. |
| First Things Last |
2002.07.05 |
Transitioners can't be choosers? |
| Wishing, Well... |
2002.07.01 |
This was a blow to my confidence levels. |
| Vanquishing Vestiges |
2002.07.01 |
Am I really that much of a perfectionist? Oh probably... |
| Part-Time Sucks: Whine #1 |
2002.06.30 |
Arrgggh... |
| How to Remove Patches |
2002.06.29 |
This sure-fire method works effectively. |
| Mounds |
2002.06.29 |
Does size matter? |
| Profile Targeting |
2002.06.29 |
BMI, waist to height, waist to hip, etc. |
| Some Kind of Normal |
2002.06.23 |
My heart found its voice in the words of another. |
| Constitution |
2002.06.23 |
Why I don't really regret having been born male. |
| Validation |
2002.06.08 |
It's good to be a girl. |
| No 'Tude |
2002.06.05 |
aka "Why I Haven't Come Out To Myself Yet" |
| Pre-Op Sex |
2002.06.03 |
A touchy subject to be sure. (Pun intended.) |
| Fun with Audio |
2002.05.11 |
Maybe the training is starting to pay off. |
| About Face |
2002.05.10 |
FFS @ SF + DR.O ASAP? |
| In The Middle |
2002.05.05 |
Two times in one day? |
| Parental Units 1 |
2002.05.04 |
A chat with Pops. |
| Diary 2 |
2002.04.20 |
Nothing in particular. |
| South of the Border |
2002.04.15 |
OMG. |
| Shavers |
2002.04.14 |
It seems like a distant memory. |
| When the Time Is Ripe |
2002.04.12 |
Sometimes I feel more like the tortoise than the hare. |
| Medications: Part 1 |
2002.03.20 |
Boo yeah. |
| No Cry |
2002.03.17 |
You ever feel this way? |
| The Story Until Now: Part 7 |
2002.03.11 |
The next step. |
| Diary 1 |
2002.03.11 |
Why focus on everyone else's "problems"? |
| The Story Until Now: Part 6 |
2001.12.31 |
A reflection of this year. |
| Encounter |
2001.12.27 |
What would you do if you met another tranny? |
| Three Possible Fates |
2001.12.02 |
What I might be able to expect in the future. |
| Leaving It Behind |
2001.11.19 |
Moving on. |
| Fish Girl |
2001.10.13 |
What an interesting day. |
| Fallen |
2001.08.06 |
Sometimes in growing you face pain. Sometimes hurting another person is unavoidable. |
| The Story Until Now: Part 5 |
2001.07.20 |
If you've read the other ramblings below then this one has a lot of repetition. But it was written in response to a person I have been talking to, and it sort of rolls together my thoughts over the past 3 years. |
| The Story Until Now: Part 4 |
2001.06.21 |
Reality is slowly slipping away. A lot of little things are happening which is scaring the heck out of me. |
| Amber on the Town II |
2001.06.10 |
Wow. Actually a full day cross-living? *gasp* |
| Danielle's story: a reaction |
2001.05.24 |
If you haven't read it, get it. |
| Part Time Thoughts: Story 1 |
2001.05.22 |
Thinking about the near future. |
| The Story Until Now: Part 3 |
2001.03.14 |
More about my therory of the need for validation. |
| Thinking Outside the Box |
2001.02.05 |
Another pause for reflection. |
| TGs in the Spotlight: Part I |
2000.12.18 |
The perception of TGs. |
| Minimum age? |
2000.12.11 |
Should there be a minimum? |
| When the Games Are Over: Part II |
2000.10.03 |
Thanks, Mom and Dad. |
| When the Games Are Over |
2000.10.01 |
The snowball really is starting to roll. |
| Pre-Outing #1 |
2000.08.19 |
The snowball may be starting to roll. |
| Amber on the Town (Briefly) |
2000.07.07 |
A milestone in a way... |
| For the Lust of the Game |
2000.06.26 |
Makes you wonder why a TG person can be TG. |
| (This Is Not) The End |
2000.06.09 |
Why should anyone consider this? |
| Buying Your Soul |
2000.05.29 |
Sometimes the clothes do make the woman... |
| On the 'Net: Part 2 |
2000.02.14 |
A tangled web it is. |
| Is That Your Final Answer? |
2000.02.07 |
Some days I'm at a loss for words. |
| Shapeshifting |
2000.02.07 |
Amazing what science has been able to do. |
| What If We Were Wrong? |
2000.02.07 |
Makes you wonder if we're misusing our freedom of expression. |
| Underwear Is Just Underwear! |
2000.02.07 |
At least, in my opinion... |
| One Fateful Day |
2000.02.07 |
Poof! You're TG. |
| Renew |
2000.02.07 |
What if you could start over? |
| Anorexia |
2000.02.07 |
Waif is out. Healthy is in. |
| Blind Corner |
2000.02.07 |
So many changes, so little time. |
| Just for the Taste of It |
2000.02.07 |
No, it's not about soft drinks. |
| Miss-identification |
2000.02.07 |
^_^ |
| A Few Shoulders |
2000.02.07 |
Maybe that's why a lot of us stick around on the 'Net. Companionship is just as important as food, shelter, and clothing. |
| Honesty Sucks |
2000.01.21 |
If you're in a relationship, you know. |
| Moving On |
2000.01.19 |
Just a status update. |
| Searching |
1999.12.04 |
Why keep pretending? |
| Back in the Minority |
1999.11.23 |
Oh boy. |
| Perfect Amber |
1999.11.21 |
What happens if desires can't become real? |
| Group Transition |
1999.11.15 |
We're all in this together. |
| Doing the Dishes: Cleaning Up Brain Clutter |
1999.11.14 |
About self-image and making do with what you have. |
| On Coming Out |
1999.11.02 |
Such a delicate dance it is. |
| Problem Solver |
1999.10.31 |
Forever. |
| Crossing the Lines |
1999.10.30 |
I just had some very interesting thoughts. Ones that just might keep me from transition. |
| Cats on the Grid |
1999.10.29 |
Is the real problem a challenge of mental constructs about how women and men should act? |
| Vacation |
1999.08.21 |
So many things, so little time. Or is it all reverting? |
| To a Very Dear Friend |
1999.07.05 |
Is there any better time? |
| Disclosure |
1999.07.05 |
The leap of faith. It's Amber vs. the rest of the world now... |
| Awakening of the Heart |
1999.05.17 |
"You go, girl," runs through my head. I'm finding the way to loose the chains that bind my soul and give it flight. |
| No Sleep |
1999.04.27 |
I'm too tired to think. I'm just floating down the stream of Life. |
| Leash |
1999.04.09 |
Beyond logic? |
| New Lease on Life |
1999.03.22 |
Will a transition bring about a completely new world? |
| Balance of the Sexes |
1999.03.06 |
Which half of the personality would win? |
| Post-Op Pondering |
1999.03.05 |
If life is meant to be lived, then what should I do after all is said and done? |
| Inner Children |
1999.03.04 |
She wants to play. |
| The CD Experience |
1999.03.01 |
CDed and in public. |
| Masks |
1999.02.28 |
Which one would you rather wear? |
| Whirlwind |
1999.02.28 |
What happened when I took a break? I got more busy, that's what... |
| The Story Until Now: Part 2 |
1999.02.04 |
Maybe it's time for a little break...? |
| Mars vs. Venus |
1999.02.03 |
Why should one's presentation be so important in relation to gender roles? |
| More on Presentation |
1999.02.03 |
Reactions based on visuals. |
| Excuses Excuses... |
1999.02.01 |
When you need an explanation... |
| Tires & Fires |
1999.01.26 |
It takes quite a bit to get me upset. |
| On Childhood |
1999.01.26 |
Some people would assume that to become TS it was the fault of a poor environment. Maybe I'm a counterexample? |
| Need vs. Want: Part 3 |
1999.01.22 |
The shopping escapades continue with a very lucky outcome. |
| The Journey |
1999.01.20 |
Act on your dreams---don't sit on them. |
| Turning the Tables |
1999.01.18 |
What if your spouse was the one who was transgendered, not you? |
| Need vs. Want: Part 2 |
1999.01.18 |
What do you know, I actually did buy something. |
| Need vs. Want: Part 1 |
1999.01.16 |
So many choices and yet so many things I do not want... Why? |
| Illness |
1999.01.13 |
Illness takes on a number of forms. |
| TS High |
1999.01.11 |
The fear of CD and beyond... |
| Too Easy To Hate |
1999.01.11 |
Even in a great country such as our American homeland, we still haven't taught each other the value of human life. |
| "Playing" Around |
1999.01.11 |
My thoughts on pornography. |
| I'm Not About That |
1999.01.11 |
Telling my S.O. that I'm transgendered is going to be tough. It'll be even tougher when it comes to the topic of sex. |
| To What Degree? |
1999.01.08 |
I do not fall into the category of transsexuals who despise their sex. And yet I wonder why I continue to think that I should consider myself to be TS. |
| Women Trapped in the Wrong Society |
1999.01.07 |
Women trapped in men's bodies. That's what we hear a lot about. But maybe it's not the body that's the problem. |
| Finding Happiness |
1999.01.07 |
After the first support group meeting, I had some thoughts on what it meant to me and to the people in the room. |
| What's in a Dress? |
1999.01.03 |
It's funny what a dress can do for the personality. |
| The Human Touch |
1999.01.02 |
Being in the same room with people is a lot different than being on-line. |
| The Fog |
1998.12.28 |
More about hiding and perseverance. |
| In My Absence |
1998.12.28 |
What happens after the game is over. |
| The Story Until Now: Part 1 |
1998.12.23 |
My life in a nutshell. |
| On Fighting Yourself |
1998.12.20 |
The war between intellect and emotions is just beginning. Come and watch the show! |
| A Wish |
1998.12.12 |
I usually ask for presents for Christmas, but this year it's a little bit different... |
| On Passing: Part 2 |
1998.12.02 |
Passing as a human is some times overlooked. This is how I remind myself that there are some things more important than appearances. |
| The Road Less Traveled |
1998.11.30 |
When conventional wisdom won't answer the questions, sometimes you may have to cut your own path in life. |
| Weakness is not a Feminine Trait |
1998.11.26 |
Who says girls have to play sweet and nice? Survivors learn how to use their inner strengths. |
| Opportunity Costs of Transsexualism |
1998.11.25 |
you need to do what's right for you. |
| Blame as a Security Blanket |
1998.11.25 |
Separating the boys from the men requires more than an turning a certain age or having a lifetime of experiences. It requires us to take responsibility for our lives. |
| On Acting Like A ... |
1998.11.21 |
Why do you want to act like a member of the opposite gender? Maybe it's because doing those things makes you feel like you are part of that role. And maybe, that's one way to find happiness. |
| On Passing: Part 1 |
1998.11.20 |
Passing is a very typical, hotly debated topic which mainly deals with how one presents himself/herself among others. While this may be important, it shouldn't be the main focus of your gender expression. |
| Epiphany: Awakening to Freedom |
1998.11.09 |
What is the root reason why we transgendered throw caution into the wind? |
| On the 'Net |
1998.11.02 |
This remarkable communication medium is probably what will save my sanity. |
